DEPRESSION
I think it is high time that I pen
down my feelings rather than just feeling it most of the time. I have suffered from
depression and maybe I am still suffering from it. Depression is a very strange
feeling, very hard to communicate. One who has never gone through it may not
understand it. It has many different faces and one cannot be compared to the
other. I don’t know what others have experienced it as but here I am going to
share my experience.
Depression is a state of complete
hopelessness. It happens when something bothers you a lot but the solution
cannot be found and this goes on for a long period of time, long enough to psychologically
convince you that this situation will not get any better but only get worse. It
is a kind of weakness felt in your heart that keeps your moral low because it
reminds you that you have failed to take control of your life. It can be
associated with a feeling of getting lost, where you have drained all your
energy to get help but in vain. It is a very scary situation, where terrible thoughts
appear in mind about your own future. You become very desperate at times in
search of things that can merely give momentary relief. Your moods and behaviour
is changed to something more erratic and extreme, that’s when people start calling
you crazy and start avoiding you. You try to contact your friends just to have
somebody to talk to but find it weird as you sound too pushy and desperate. The
reiteration of these bothering circumstances leads to a loop with no escape. I
have experienced some of many symptoms that are: Loneliness, Intolerance and
Anger.
Judgement is what every person,
who fails to understand the person under depression, does. There are things in
this world that are beyond the capability of a human being to understand. According
to these people the victims are categorized between weak (the ones that take
the extreme step) and strong (the ones that do not). I want to say that every
person who is uncomfortable in doing something does it or at least tries to do
it or even chooses to quit that job is strong. Sometimes it is a strong decision
to choose not to suffer.
So what could be the solution to this
chronic issue millions face all over the world? It’s HELP. It is some kind of “external
help” that provides a support around which the victim could grow some hope. The
help could be as small as saying that everything will be alright or that I will
be there for you. People needed to be understood and cared.
